9 months old
How did that even happen?!
The best 9 months of my whole life
Also the most challenging 9 months of my whole life
Baby girl, we are so blessed to have you in our lives. I hope you know that – I know I tell you (and daddy) how lucky we are to have you EVERY day, and I hope you remember that over all the times I’ve asked you to just be quiet for a minute so I can think, over all the times I’ve cursed under my breath, over all the times that I’ve got annoyed because you won’t stay still when I’m trying to change you. Because more than all of that I feel blessed that you are here. There’s not a single day that goes by when I take you for granted – at one point I didn’t think you’d ever be here, and now here you are – our gorgeous, all-consuming, daredevil, brave, confident little lady ♥️
I don’t think you will ever understand (except, perhaps if you have your own children) just how much joy you have bought in to our lives. Just how much we love and adore you.
That’s not to say it’s been plain sailing – far from it. From the second we knew you existed I have worried about you! The relief at seeing your little heartbeat inside of me at that first scan was so overwhelming – I don’t think I’ll ever be so relieved again in my whole life! And then there was the growth scan that indicated you’d stopped growing, the emergency c section to get you out, the stay in hospital because you weren’t feeding… even after we came home, the sleepless nights, the colic, the news that you’d have to wear a pavlik harness… The loss of my identity as a sole person rather than someone’s mum, the irreversible changes to my body, the million new grey hairs 😂
The shift in the relationship with your Daddy – the lack of time to be a couple, to have us time – to go to a bar, or a restaurant, or some nights just to even sleep in the same bed!
Oh Isla, you have pushed our marriage to its absolute limits, tested our resilience in more ways than you’ll ever realise. You’ve also brought me and your Daddy back together closer than ever, you make us unbelievably proud on a daily basis, never fail to make us smile and laugh at your growing personality which already seems so huge!
We are constantly in awe at how amazing you’re doing, how you’re not afraid to try anything – and at how you often succeed! You are such a strong and clever little girl.
You give the best sloppy kisses and your cuddles are second to none.
It’s amazing watching you with other people – such a little show off! And everyone always tells us how you’re such a happy little girl (not always true but usually the side you show in public – little tinker 😂) Any concerns I had about you settling in to nursery are long gone – you’re off to the front of all our baby classes now, trying to play with everyone else in the room but me!! My little miss independent!
And you’ve been like glue for us and the wider family! You are absolutely adored by your Grandparents – the apple of Granny B’s eye, Nonna’s beautiful little Isla bear, and you definitely have Grandad wrapped around your tiny little fingers!
As much as I’d give anything for time to just slow dowwwwwn for a bit so I can take in every detail about you, savour these last few months in our little bubble before I have to go back to work, I also can’t wait to see what else you have in store for us. Every month so far has bought it’s own new challenges, and yet every month has been more rewarding than the last.
This weekend you’re going to be christened, you’re going to look so beautiful in your special dress, and I just know I’ll be bursting with pride watching you!
So keep being you my little star – you are truly amazing. I can’t wait to see what your future holds ♥️♥️♥️